| | and the repressed feelings from my past revisited my thoughts as i slipped into a conversation with someone who wants to know the real me. i find myself sick with the forgiveness that i never let myself have. i haven't forgiven myself, even though you may already forgive me. instead i bask in the guilt that i continue to hide to keep my head above water. no one should have to drown in this fear, and so i will ask you to forgive me again, if only to see it in your eyes. an unconditional love. my past mistakes weigh me down, because i did not wait, and because i fooled myself into believing something about myself that wasn't true - "this is your worth....".... as i became someone who i was not in denial of my own good judgment for the value of someone's worst.
but i'm finding myself again. and knowing myself once more...the real me.
hold me.
love me. |
| | Posted 3/29/2009 10:45 PM - 5 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
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